As a second semester senior, I’d love to say that I’m enjoying my last semester to the fullest, taking advantage of everything that Boston College has to offer. However, to be perfectly honest, I’m partially just waiting out the days until graduation. At a certain point, the college lifestyle feels played out. I’m tired of taking classes just to get that check mark on my degree audit, living in cramped on-campus housing with too many girls, going to the same parties with the same people, drinking at the same bars… it’s all too familiar. Nothing is really exciting anymore and everything seems to have lost its luster.
The perks of college aren’t lost on me. I know that when I leave college I leave behind the ability to sleep until 11am everyday and have my friends live less than a 5-minute walk from my door. I fully appreciate the lack of responsibility I have for the next few months: no bills to pay and no full-time job to go to. And there is that certain feeling of being in college, sheltered from most “real-life” concerns, focused instead on what party to go to on Friday and how quickly you can churn out the paper due Monday.
Yet I’m ready to move on. The question is, to what? The constant “So what do you want to do after college?” question that seniors are repeatedly asked is something that many of us are still asking ourselves. For me, the response is a big, resounding “I have no idea.” The in-between nature of senior year is that many of us are ready to move on, we’ve spent our four years and are ready for what’s next, but all that is coming closer and closer to the unknown. There are those lucky few that already have job offers on the table and contracts signed, but many of us are in this searching and waiting period–searching for the job we think will make us happy or waiting to figure out what it could be.
As a soon-to-be graduate of A&S, I’m struggling with the fact that my major choices have no equivalent job. I’m slightly jealous of my friends who majored in accounting because their choice is already made; they will become accountants (although I’m not all that jealous because accounting sounds terrible to me). I feel like my career options are like that giant menu at a restaurant that takes you 10 minutes to look through and you still have no idea what to order.
I recently had my professor tell a class of seniors that the next few years of our lives are unaccounted for in our society and no one expects us to be settled down with a career for a while. He urged us to explore our options and take chances while the consequences are limited. Losing a job and having to move back in with your parents for a few months when you’re 23 is a lot better than when you’re 30.
Graduating college is scary because I don’t know what comes next. I’m sick of the sticky, beer-covered kitchen floors and the lectures that I know will never be useful, but at least I know what to expect. However, I’m starting to realize that not knowing what to expect could be the best part of the next few years. Now is my opportunity to make mistakes, to go with my gut, and take a job that might not pan out but might be amazing. I’d rather try and fail at a bunch of different things now than wake up and be forty and hate my career. I think the best thing I can do while finishing up my senior year is to be okay with not knowing what I want to do and spend the next few years enjoying the uncertainty while trying to figure it out.